Hey guys I am back with another blog and this one is about how I’ve been shy for my entire life and how it has affected me over the years. I am now going to get into the blog so here we go guys.
So in school I was one of the quietest kids by far. Everyone else would be playing together while talking and laughing whereas I’d be sitting on my own being super quiet. I do realise now that this was a lot worse than I realised. I do think it’s okay to have your own time alone here and there but when it’s pretty constant it’s just not healthy. Part of growing up is to interact and learn from the experiences of others. I make up for this these days despite still being pretty shy but that’s more to do with my Asperger’s Syndrome than anything.
I think it’s easier these days because more people are open to understanding and learning more about Asperger’s Syndrome whereas as children barely understand disabilities like that. It caused enough problems for me when trying to understand it and failing so I never expected anyone else to understand it to be honest. I have only had a couple of people within the last few years make an issue with taking time to understand my disability but both of them turned out to be super toxic anyway so I’m not surprised.
Even when I used to go out to nightclubs and pubs I was always the quietest one out of my entire friendship group. I used to be close to about 20/25 people therefore I could have different nights out with different people so regularly. No matter who was out I was like the ghost of the group. I think I’m just naturally a better listener than speaker and I’ve made peace with this too as I want to move forward with my strengths instead of being held back by my weaknesses.
I guess I’m just always gonna be the “shy guy” in life and that’s completely okay to me. I’ve built bonds with great people in my life and I’ve also got a 15 month relationship going as strong as ever right now so being fairly quiet can’t be that bad right?
In the comments below guys I would love for you to say where you fit into your friendship group and talk about any time where you found yourself to be a really shy person.
Thank you for reading and supporting my blogs as always guys. Lets build some engagement with each other in the comments.