My Honest Opinion on Myself-7/5/18
Hey, guys, I am back with another honest opinion blog and this one will be about myself and how I view things about myself. I was undecided on whether to do a blog like this because self-analysis used to be the major cause of my problems with mental health and anxiety but as I am in a good place mentally I am going to do it now. I will go through multiple aspects such as my personality, ability to make decisions and my growth as a person. Let’s get right into it guys and I want to say a big thank you for the support and feedback on the first blog in the series and all of my others as always.
I have a very odd personality in my own opinion. I am very laid back and willing to joke around as a person once I am comfortable with other people around me. However, before this happens I admit that I can be one of the most awkward people ever. Another aspect of my personality that is strong in my opinion is my ability be rather sarcastic. I don’t always mean it but it’s just second nature to me and it happens without me always really thinking about it.
The strongest aspect of my personality though has to be my ability to care for people. It’s just natural and what I find that I am best at. I always put other people first and usually, I can have a positive impact on them. I will always make sacrifices too such as sleep if it means putting a smile on someone who I care about’s face. It is just how I’ve always been, to be honest. I never want to change that.
My decision-making skills are usually pretty solid, to be honest. I’ve made great choices when it comes to people in my life within the last 18 months. I have managed to get rid of all of the negative ones and keep all of the positive ones. I’ve also decided to stop chasing people and to let the ones who care show it by contacting me first more often instead of forcing the conversations with people who barely give a shit.
I have also made my best and most vital 3 decisions within the last 18 months. I needed a creative outlet and that came when I started to blog but even before that in April 2017 I chose to stop drinking and that’s had nothing but massive benefits such as improving my mental and physical health as well as saving loads of money. The 3rd decision was that in January 2017 I was ready for a relationship and as I write this I have now been with my girlfriend Sophie for exactly 16 months.
I have grown so much as a person over the last 12/18 months and I put that down to a lot of things but the main one was accepting that perfection doesn’t really exist and that I should accept my flaws and keep living life. I was fed up of striving for perfection and what society sees as the ideal. I know I’m a total misfit in terms of what society sees as normal but I am happy with that. I’m not meant to fit in but it’s made me enjoy my life so much more.
The biggest aspect of growth for me is definitely how I’ve grown mentally. I was depressed, full of anxiety and not confident in myself at all. However, I am now skyrocketing mentally and reaching new peaks with my confidence every single day of my life. I now no longer need to force a smile and that means so much to me. I know I have so much to offer and that I have loads of great qualities that people used to mention often yet I’d never have believed them. If you said to me I’d feel as great as I do now when I was 19 and on the verge of suicide I’d have told you that you were crazy but now that I am nearly 24 I see that light is absolutely at the end of the dark tunnel so just hang in and keep going.
How well I cope with stress
I am very hit and miss when it comes to coping with stress. I feel like sometimes I lose all composure whereas I hold things together very well in other instances. I have begun to cope with the stress of interviews very well but when I know about the interview a couple of weeks in advance, the days running up to it are extremely uncomfortable. I will find new ways to cope better but for now, I am only average at coping with stress.
However, I cope with the stress of money management extremely well. I know smart ways to save here and there despite being unemployed. Shopping in cheaper stores and looking for all of the best deals is actually very simple to do and well worth the time. I also don’t spend on things I don’t need either so that will save me a lot going forward too. I won’t spend on the latest phone each month or on fancy trainers or other things like that.
My Asperger’s Syndrome
I am very proud of myself for how I’ve begun to cope with my Asperger’s Syndrome lately. The only thing I still can’t do is cope well with long phone calls or a few in quick succession but I feel like maybe one day I still could. I am still very nervous in front of new people too but I think that applies to most people that I know of. I remember the days where I couldn’t cope at all with my disability but to me now it’s not something that disables me to the point where my life can’t be normal. I find that I am living a normal life now and not being held back an awful lot anymore. I can only keep improving on this too in my own opinion.
My Overall Opinion
I find that as a person now I am in a very great position. I have dealt with so many of my weaknesses and I am aware of how to fix the few I have left. I may not be the smartest or the funniest but I am an individual who is unique and always up for a good time and a challenge. I am living the best stage of my life so far and I can only see things going upwards even more.
This has been my honest opinion of myself guys. I’d highly recommend that you guys show yourself some love on a blog like this or just by having a few thoughts about yourself. It can boost your confidence so much and make you realise that you are awesome and shouldn’t ever change.
Thank you for reading guys and always stay shining.
My Honest Opinion on Myself-7/5/18